“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:26 (NIV)
I used to think of getting older in terms of birthdays. Lately, I notice it in doctor’s appointments, in the things my body can no longer do easily, and in the quiet thought that comes when another health problem appears: What will it be next year?
I’m grateful for the life God has given me. I’m also tired of hurting. Both of those things can be true.
Some days I pray with confidence. Other days my prayer is simply, “Lord, please get me through today.” When I wonder whether such a small prayer is enough, I think about Job.
Job knew what it was to suffer in his body and live with questions he could not answer. He grieved. He spoke honestly about his pain. His story reminds me that I can come to God as I am, even when I have no hopeful words to offer.
Job’s friends tried to explain his suffering, but their answers did not comfort him. When another health problem appears, I sometimes search for an explanation, too. Did I do something wrong? Should I be handling this better? Job’s story reminds me that suffering is not proof that God is displeased with someone.
Psalm 73:26 gives me words for what I already know: my strength has limits. It also reminds me that when my strength runs low, I can still turn to God. I can ask for wisdom at the doctor’s office, accept help from someone who cares, and rest when my body needs it.
I do not know what my health will look like a year from now. I wish I did. For today, I am learning to bring God the worries I have, care for the body He has given me, and ask Him to help me take the next step.
If you are facing changes in your health, I hope you know you are not alone in the questions or the weariness. You do not need to have a strong voice to pray. You can tell God exactly where it hurts. You can seek care, lean on others, and take the day slowly. And when all you can say is, “Lord, help me through today,” that is a prayer He hears.
Reflection questions
1. What have I been afraid to tell God about my health or the changes I am facing?
2. Am I expecting myself to carry more than today requires?
3. Who could I ask for support this week?
Lord, You know the pain, uncertainty, and weariness we carry. Thank You for listening when our prayers are short and full of questions. Give us wisdom as we care for our health and courage to ask for help when we need it. Be near to the person who feels frightened by what tomorrow might bring. Please give us the strength we need for today. In Jesus name, amen.